One of those weekend....

Yes I had one of those weekends and it sucked. I had to make the decision weather or not to go to the reunion. Well as much as I wanted to go I just couldn't take Dax to the farm house being as hot as they say it's was and not have a house with air. So we didn't go. That was cool with me. Saturday didn't feel great and we did some shopping for Dad and just hung out. Sunday I woke up and wasn't about to have any part of the day. I felt awful. So Dad and Rachel went to church and Dax was in bed. I watched the shinning for the first time and make flowers out of ribbon. It was fun. So when everyone got back and woke up it was potty time. Dax has not given me any trouble with the potty training at all. So he sat and we read and wow he pooped on the potty and he thought it was so funny. So I get him down and clean up the books and what not. I looked around the corner for Dax and there he is just getting done squatting on the kitchen floor. He laugh and ran up stairs. I was in shock on what he did. My parents in the other room were like what is wrong. I told there there was a huge turd on the floor. Yep they all laughed it was funny until I had to clean it up. But I think he's understanding a bit more on what he is to do.

So later Sunday night I get a call on my phone. Yes it was my husband! I was so excited to hear from him. I was his prize for winning his challenge. So we talked for two mins before my phone died. I know I good for messing things up. So I ran in the house all up in tears having everyone looking for my charger. I knew that was it. I didn't even get to say good bye. Well he had called back and said he was going to try his mom but he loved us. For the time I did have he got to go to church for the first time this week. Got his dog tags and religious medallion yesterday. Tomorrow he goes under to get his wisdom teeth and two molars removed. He starts gun training next week. He's really enjoying it and I'm glad for that, but dang I'm really missing him and having a hard time with this. It's been 4 weeks now. I know that it's going to be 6 months at a time. I should have more contact with him when out and about but I love being married. At times I feel so alone. He gets me in ways that others don't. I don't have many friends out here in Tennessee. It's just something we are going to have to learn to deal with it's just hard right now. So hopefully I can feel better soon and keep the stupid phone charged. Lesson learned.

My little Cowboy doll

This is how my son left for school today. Daddy necklace, check, Buzz in hand, check, Woody's hat, check? Yeah this kid really thought this was part of his outfit and had to wear it to school today. The whole time he's howdy howdy howdy. Its too funny. We found this hat at Joann's. He also had to wear his nemo underwear to school. But he's not potty trained yet so they are just over his diaper. What a silly boy I have and man is he all boy. His new thing to recently is polly pockets. He just loves palying with them and handing them out and dressing them. It's really funny.

Anchors away

I got this necklace off of etsy from Aghalo . It's a cute sterling sliver anchor necklace. I plan on wearing it to graduation. It's my way to show my support for my sailor.

After 3 weeks!

I finally got my first letter from my husband! He's been at boot camp now for 3 weeks. Tonight I was suppose to get a call but we'll see if he still does seeing that he technically called me last week (but only for info) so we didn't get to really talk. I was sick at home yesterday so it was really nice to have gotten a letter. I can already hear a new tone in his words.

He said he's doing well. He's passing all he's test and inspections. He says it's alot like collage tons of classes. Boot camp would be easy if you just shut your mouth. He didn't realized how hard it was to get a 18-19 year old to just shut their mouth. Because of that they get "beat" they work out until they just can't. Looks like Billy's nick name is Glasses!  It was really sweet cause one of the thing that he said was that he was sorry he didn't take the extra time every day to tell me how much he loved me and how beautiful I am. I mean don't get me wrong he did alot for the most part. He's just missing us a ton. I can't wait to see him on my birthday! Only 5 more weeks!

Toy story

This weekend is the weekend I told Dax I would take him to the movies to see Toy Story 3. I waited 3 weeks cause I knew what he was going to do, and he did. It was still pretty packed. He talked the whole time! "My buzz light year, rrroooaaarr, Mr. Pigg oink oink. Oh no!" It was soo cute and he totally loved it. I'm glad we took him. After that we went to walmart. We were on a mission to get a potty ring. He picked out a Thomas the train potty ring. He was so happy to have it until we went pass the bedding row. Well, no that we moved in with the family, Dax has Rachel's old room. Yes it's totally girly. Pink, yellow, purple and flowers growing up the walls with flowered sheets on the bed. So we got him toy story sheets in hopes it makes the room more boyish! I washed them and put them on his bed. Later that night I told him it was time for bed and he walked right up there. When we got in his room," Oh my gosh its Toy Story! My buzz and Jessie!" It was just to cute he's totally in love with them.

On Sunday we tried out the potty ring. He likes it and never put up a fight with me. He even peed in it once! He did so good. We try every day now. We also gave up the plug. I will not be buying any more for that boy.  He crews threw them one a week. They are $4 a pack and he's a big boy. He did good last night. only cried for 10 mins then fell asleep so we'll see how he does tonight.

Also Billy called again Friday night. I really dont' want him calling if I can't talk to him. I have no idea what's going on. I haven't gotten a letter and i haven't gotten to talk with him. Every time he calls it's hey you need to do this or I need this from you. He had to retake his swimming test and we didn't get to talk about it. I don't know when he's suppose to call me now so I guess I'll just have my phone on and ready.

Who's on the phone?

Yeah I had to ask twice. My husband had been trying to call me all morning. Well I didn't know he would be calling so I wasn't ready. But he needed a bunch of information. He called me like every 5 mins! It was really nice to talk with him. He was able to fit in that boot camp is hard but he's enjoying it. When they get in trouble they have to go to their room and work out until they walls start to sweat. GROSS!  His swimming test is tomorrow. After I got all the stuff he needed we knew that this was most likely our last call. You could tell some one was near. He got all quite and was like hey, hey listen. I miss you so much. He started to get all teared up. He said that he misses us alot and he loved us very much. I told him I would get to see him soon and that  I loved him too. So it was nice to have gotten to hear his voice but we didn't get to talk. This counted as my 3 week call now I have another 3 weeks before  I hear from him. :(

5 years and counting.....

I have been married for 5 years as seen in the post below talking about your anniversary last month. I love Billy so much! It's crazy how head over heels I for him. I love the little family we have. I know that it's hard being a military wife. This is something we've talked about and we understand. Like I say for everything. You get what you put in. I'm tired of people being blunt with me saying," You know your marriage isn't going to work now right."

We got married in the temple in Nashville, Tennessee 5 years ago. We've been threw alot. Ups, downs, and everything in between. With him being in the Navy it's going to be hard but if we want it to work it will. People do it all the time. I love him and plan to be with him forever. I guess it just makes me mad that these people know me and know better to say that...well I sent him my first letter. I can't wait till he gets it.

Here is a link on how to make marriage work while in the military.

Mail call

Yesterday was a good mail day. I got TWO packages! One from Jemma that was extra cute snack bags that she made and the other was from Billy. It was a box with the clothes and shoes he wore the day he left. It was kind of a weird feeling opening it up. He forgot his calling card in his pants so I sent it back.

Graduation

This weekend I got some information on Billy's graduation. When I got his letter it looked funny. You could read the writing on the front and it was all in caps. I open it up and the first thing I see is his writing and it says, " Happy birthday! This is the best birthday present I can give you. I love and miss both you and Dax." I was like what the heck is he talking about it's not my birthday. So I read on this packet he sent and well he graduates on my birthday! So I'll be in Illinois for my birthday spending the day with my sailor in his dress uniform! So now is the planing for the hotels and the driving. I'm so excited to see him.

Also this weekend I sold Billy's car! Yeppers I did I was so excited to see it gone. I didn't get all I wanted for it cause it had a few more things wrong with it that I could tell. But I got a chunk of change.

The fourth of July

So today me and Dax went to the Mount Juliet ward with my parents. Oh have things have changed. There were alot of new people there but being the summer time alot of my old friends were there I havent' seen in a while. During first hour where we are all together my dad was showing Dax some pictures on his phone. It was testimony meeting today so it was some what quite in there. Dax sees a picture of him that has Billy in the background. As loud as can be, "My daddy my daddy at home! My daddy." yeah he's missing his daddy alot. I've been trying to tell him you know daddy's at camp and we'll see him later but he's 2. I think this whole move and daddy be gone is getting to him. He's not eating at all with me. This long weekend he's maybe eaten enough for one day's worth. I'm trying to get him to eat anything right now.

Other wise after first hour I took Dax to his class to come back and not know where Sunday school was. So I went and asked my friends and they were all like oh its down the hall. Well I over heard one of the guys say it was in the chapel. So we walked down the hall and I was going in the chapel and the guys weren't. I was like hey I thought it was in here. "Oh this is the singles class so yeah I guess you do have to go in there..." So I went to Sunday school by my self. It was sad not having any one in there to sit with. It didn't help that the guy teaching  reminded me of Doug off of that old cartoon. So I went to talk with  Bishop Lasson. Asked about my records being transferred and talked about how I was going to be there for 7ish months. He felt bad he didnt' get to say good by to Billy. It was all so fast.

It was good. After church we went to Billy's mom's house for dinner. After dinner Dax was starting to tell me he was tired. So we went to Providence and walked around some. After some time the parking lot lights when out and the fireworks started. It was just me,  Dax and my sister Rachel. We couldn't really see the fireworks so after about 20 mins we started to leave. We weren't really in the mood for them tonight any how. As we left the real ones started and they were huge! So we pulled in a dirt lot and watched. Dax was like Oh pretty!  it was so cute! Then we bailed early. I think everyone is still getting use to the idea that Billy's gone and now we have other people we live with. The dogs got in like a real dog fight the other night. It was scary. Juliet is so little. Dax isn't eating and I don't feel like my self. It's been almost one week so I hope it gets better soon.

I got a call!

Last night at 11 I got a call and Billy made it and he was tired but he's ready to go. This first week might be hard on him. It's mostly processing, paper work, shots, and removal of wisdom teeth! I should hear from him in 3 weeks and get a package from him in a week.

The last two weeks

In the last two weeks it's been so busy. It was ok cause it helped me not to focus on Billy leaving. We hit our goal and got all of our stuff out of the apartment on  Thursday. We were so happy. So here's the great part. Friday we left for Gatlinburg. It was our 5 year wedding anniversary. We spent the weekend kid free in a cabin on the top of a mountain. It was great.  The second day we were there we went and walked around Gatlinburg and went to the aquarium. We got home at like 3 it was so hot and we were so tired. All we wanted to do was get back and fall asleep while watching TV. The TV broke. Yep it worked that morning and stopped when we got back. It took them 3 hours to tell us what they were going to do about it. Well they offered us an extra night but we couldn't do it cause Dax was being watched and we didn't have extra money for things. So we played alot of shuffle bored and foss ball. We tried to fill the 4 person tub up but the water was brown it was so gross so we hung out in the hot tub out side alot. The trees and the sounds were so pretty and relaxing. It was nice to spend our anniversary and our last weekend together.

On the way back we stopped by the farm. We stopped by and hung out on the porch swing. This year there was corn. Almost all the way up by the farm house. There was grass over grown everywhere, it was kinda strange I've never seen it like that before.  After that we went up to the cemetery to see his family and his grandpa. Alot of his family was in the military. He wasn't going to be able to come up there for a while and we always go see Grandpa Billy when we come to the family reunions. I love road trips we always have fun.

So we got back in town Sunday night. Monday we went and talked with Grannie for most the day. She's so funny. I love Grannie advice. She also made Billy two blankets. He will get those for Christmas. They are TN VOLS  fleece blankets!!!

 Tuesday Billy was getting really nervous and he thought I was mad at him. He worked out all day and I think he really stressed him self out. This last two weeks I've really tired to be supportive and we've talked about the boot camp thing and how we both felt and I think everything was left on a good note. Tuesday night  we went over to his mom's and most the family was there for hot wings! They all had some advice to give to him and then they all said their good byes. Then off to work out again. Oh a side note Dax was AWFUL that night. He was mean to both  Phoenix (1) and Chris  (3). Pushing, taking toys, dumping juice on Phoenix's head, screaming, kicking  hitting the 3 dogs. Then hitting mommy and pinching her. Yep he was in time out most the night. He can wear me out some nights.

Wednesday came. I've been pretty good not to let Billy see me cry. I wanted to be strong for him and let him know I'm proud of him. It's sad he's leaving but it's all for the good. I let him sleep in. We got ready and by 9:30 we left the house to go to his mom's. He wanted to work out one more time. Now this poor kid hasn't been eating much at all the past 3 days. So on top of being nervous he's really hungry. So he works out and weighs in. 193....He can't weigh any more then 196 so he's in the good! And boy does he look good :) So he took a shower and while he did that I went and got a calling card and Dax a Buzz lightyear sippy cup. When I got back his mom had gotten off work. We ate lunch then took some pictures at his mom's. We drove to Galitan and I got to meet his recurtior. He was nice but not what I had pictured. We got there and filled out some paper work. They gave Dax some balls to play with and boy he had a ball it was so cute.
I didn't know I could see him off at the air port so this was my last time seeing him. As we left the center his  recurtior went to the rest room and while we walked down the hall way back out to the parking lot the tears came. I didn't want him to see but he thought it was cute. Dax being 2 didn't and wont really know what's going on and for not having a real nap that day he did give hugs and kisses. It was sad seeing him off but it was bound to come sooner or later.

And off goes the car to the hotel, and mine back home. Before we went home I had to get my mind straight. You ask how...Shopping! We went to walmart and I got Dax his new jammies! Aren't they just the cutest!! I've found that he likes Buzz better than woody. He still calls Woody Dora for some reason. I got a top for $1 for me and a few tops for Dax for  $2 for the winter.  Then off to target to get a bigger Buzz. He has one that's the size of like two quarters on top of each other it's small. So I got him a bigger one and I put his name on the Bottom of his foot. That's his favorite part. But Buzz flys everywhere its to cute. When we put his new jammies on he flipped out he thought it was just the coolest. We then went to old navy. I found alot of cute stuff there but I think I walked out with 2 items. I know it's silly but getting maternity clothes in extra small you can never tell. But for $3 you can't pass that up. As we were there Dax lost his plug. I could not find that stupid thing any where. This is the year we ARE getting rid of it.

We got home that night. I had a head ache, I had cramps, and I was sad. I cleaned up more of my junk around my dad's house and made Dax dinner and gave him a bath and put him to bed. I really wasn't in the mood for much. Dad made me soup and we watched that Percy Jackson Lighting thief movie. It was good just long. I went to bed at 10. I just lied there for a while and just cried. I know this is for a good reason and I know he's doing it for the family and wow is it going to be great for us and a great opportunity for him. But heck I'm going to miss him so much and I'm going to miss his hugs and the random information he has in his head.  I got scared. Knowing that for the next while I'm mostly going to alone, raising Dax, doing things just the two of us. I"m going to miss being "married". I love that he's my best friend and we have fun together.  But I guess now what I'm looking forward to is seeing him in his dress blues at graduation. He's going to look so different in 9 weeks!