Sunday, December 11, 2011

What does FAMILY mean to you....

Lately it seems like things are falling apart. Family doesn't mean what it use to it feels like. I see young families and older families and so badly i wish for what they have, but I know it not easy work to have what they have. But at the same time this is my family and I'm happy with that cause I love them.  There have been many changes to our extended family and it's hard to watch and be apart of. It's hard cause we,  me and Billy, now don't really have a family to look up to to strive to be like, only what not to do. Broken families should be no big deal for me. I've deal with it all my life. I think that is so that I can help others threw their hard times and its been really hard with my mother in laws devoice. So I'm glad I have these experiences to help him. But at the same time I feel forgotten about. And in a time of need.

Why is it that friends seem to be more like family at times. At my last job I had a small group of friends that pretty much knew everything about what ever was going on. They were there for me to give me advise, to listen, to tell jokes, to be there for me when i needed it the most as well I was there for them. We may have had moments where things were said we didn't want to hear but needed to hear. When it came time for gifts they were some of the most thoughtful. I miss my group of friends but am in the market for new ones.

Over all I have stepped backed and will only be focusing on my family the four of us. They need me and  I think if we can stay a strong that things will work out for the best. I really hope that we can be an example for my sister. She's seen and delt with alot and even thou she's miles away i hope i can still be a good sister for her.


I'm a little late on this due to not having the Internet, but I wanted to share with you my thoughts. I am so thankful to be where I am today.  

I am thankful for my husband. He has done more for me than he thinks. He's there for me to talk to when I need support. He supports me in the things I do. He has a hard demanding job that allows for me to stay home with the kids. I love him very much and I'm so happy to have him in my life. 

I am thankful for both Dax and Vera and the lessons they teach me. They are the sweetest and I couldn't ask for better. 

I'm thankful for my mom and dad. As i've grown up I've been able to understand things better. Im thankful that my mom being across the states still calls me every day and wants to be a part of my life.  I haven't seen her since the wedding 6 years ago but someday we will get out to AZ and she will get to meet her grandkids. I'm thankful for my dad with all the wisdom and funny emails. He is now not in the same city/state as we are and I find that we miss having him around. We always have so much fun together and Dax just adores him.

Im thankful for the things I have in my life. It may not be perfect but it's good enough for me. Im thankful for the church in my life for it guides  me and gives me hope. Im thankful for the the Navy and the opportunities it's given to my family. Im thankful for my friends who are sometimes closer to me than family. 

At this time of the year and with the birth of my daughter I'm still really emotional and have been doing alot of thinking and I'm so happy and miss my family and can't wait for everyone to meet my sweet girl. To be closer to the family for a while and start a new chapter in our lives.