Day 6

Vera is now 6 days old. Coming home has been interesting. First you have Dax. I have been worried about him and these moments. I think he's doing well. The first day we were home two hours and I don't know what came over him but he ripped his bed sheets in half. Yes he is 3 and no his daddy isn't the hulk. So that was out of the blue. I have been trying to make special effort to included him on things and to not hide out in rooms and send him away. When she is sleeping i try to play with him or read books. The first day or so I told him i could play pirates cause i was doing something. He put his head down and dropped what was in his hands and walk away.  A little dramatic but it broke my heart so we played. He's been really good with baby sister and really likes having her around. So with the help of Billy we are trying to be better about that. Its just hard when the build up to this was going to the park every day and going to story time. So it's been crazy having all of us locked up, but it's also getting colder out side and it's just not happening.

Billy has just been a huge help around the house it's just awesome. He's looking out for me and helping get things done. He gets to stay home with me for 14 days.  So he'll have to drive me places when we need to go. Like Vera's dr appt she had and we are getting pictures made this week! He's such a great husband. He has fallen in love with his daughter and can't get enough. He can just watch her sleep. He's so glad that things have gone the way i want he knows its all important to me.

I have been healing great I am able to do most things for my self. I do take it easy cause I still get a bit  swollen in my feet and just tired but it's really been great. Compared to last time when I really couldn't do anything didn't want to eat or drink anything, I had so much extra weight on me I just wasn't in a great state. This time has been great I'm still sore down there and will be for a while, my stitches are sore but otherwise I'm always hungry and losing pounds by the day. So far I have lost 15 pounds and it's been 6 days. Breast feeding has also been something new to me. I tried with Dax and it just wasn't happening. Towards the end of my leave I found a nipple shield. With out this I would not be able to nurse. Its the only way either of them will take. But seeing that I was going back to work in two week I stopped pumping and started formula. Seeing that I get to stay home with the kids this time I plan on nursing for a while. Its been hard she's had her good days and we've had our bad. Staying up all night has been crazy hard running on 2-4 hours of sleep every night to wake up and do it again. Im not  napper I just can't. So time is all we need.

Vera is doing great she's eating alot so I'm hoping by the time her next appt comes she's back to birth weight at least. I love to just watch her I mean she sleeps alot but she's so darn cute. Dax loves it when she looks at him he loves to look at her eyes. With my help I let Dax "hold" her and she just looked up and stared at him. You can tell they are going to get along well.

Juliet the dog. What can I say she's crazy. She didn't really care much while I was pregnant, but I think too we scared her a bit when we left in a hurry but now that we are home she wants to be so motherly to her. When every she cries or starts moving she's there by her side. The first night we were home I was asleep getting ready to wake up and feed her soon. Vera in her bed next to me, Billy on the bed on the computer.  All of a sudden Juliet tries to get in the bassinet. Billy goes to check it out and Vera is choking. Neither of us heard her so now we more alert.

Still pregnant!

This week I am not 39 weeks pregnant with Vera and for right now she had no intention on coming out soon. My due date is next Wednesday, I have a dr appt the day after. So next week if she is not here he wants to talk about being induced. Well I'm not sure how i feel about the situation. I was induced with Dax and well ended up in a c section for failure to progress. It's looking like a repeat right now. He said we will talk about ways he can induce with out drugs so i'll listen to that first. I have read things here and there about being induced with pitocin and still being able to have a VBAC. But I've also heard that pitocin and a c section scare are not good friends. So I'm a bit torn at this. In a way it kinda makes me sad cause this is what my body was made to do. This is a women's calling and well my body just doesn't want to deliver. With Dax i got to walk in to the hospital feeling fine and get in a bed and be pumped full of drugs only for 12 hours later to be in the OR. I was so happy to finally hear that sweet baby cry but it wasn't my dream birth. At that time it was the safest and if that's what we needed then i'm willing, but i did leave disappointed.

This time around i want to go in to labor and i want to labor at home for a time and walk around and get to push her out only to have my sweet girl laid on my chest. Once again I will do what I have to, to make sure everyone is safe and healthy. So lets hope she comes in the next week!

Baby girl Vera,
Everyone wants you here and it's now ok to come at any time. Your strong and your healthy. Your big brother can't wait to play with you your daddy wants to kiss on you and mommy just wants to hold you in her arms.  Your going to fit right in and be showered with love and kisses.  Good things are here waiting for you........(still waiting)

love  your mommy!

This is me at 39 weeks and tired as all get out for not having a good night. On my way to the dr.

Bow holder

So my sister-in-law's brother had a baby girl. We are all really close. They did not find out the sex of the baby til she was born. They had a girl! So now it the time I get to make cute girl stuff. I've been out shopping and I got her 7 little dresses for next year. They were like $1.50 a piece! What a deal. I also made this.

BEFORE: I bought this at good will. The only thing I didn't like about it was for one it was plastic. Two it didn't have backing to it.



AFTER: A little paint some ribbon. Bam it's done.

After with the bows. Yes this is a bow holder for little girl bows. How cute is this!!! I got these bows off of etsy for yes....$1 each.

Want to save some money?

So last year i had my first baby. We all know how they cost soooo much. So my friend introduced me to this consignment sale they have in her city. Now i knew what a consignment store was cause that's where i got my wedding dress but this was a big shopping deal that happens twice a year. So here are the pictures from last year. Last year i spent $50 and i got all pictured below ( i got an exersaucer for $10 and that's not pictured)

Most of this stuff is named brand too. Not that, that matters to me but it's a great deal.

So this year I'm working at the sale. For working it i get a $50 gift card to shop there. So that was a great help. This time around i really needed another car seat. Take a look at what i got this year. Out of pocket $64 brought home $114 actually worth close to $200 if not more...


In this picture you have:
(3) 3 piece pjs
(3) 2 pairs of pj's
(4) tops
(2) sets (top and bottoms)
(2) pairs of shorts
(1) vest shirt pants set for church
(5) shoes
(6) pairs of socks
TOYS
a horse that's a flashlight
a barn with animals
a bag with 3 animals on wheels that make noise
a little people garbage man and truck
OTHER
i got a dress (not pictured)
the car seat that has arm rest and a cup holder
a shower sprayer
a nemo puffer fish to hold the bath toys



He got some shoes seeing that he is going to be walking soon. I love the crocs!




so i encourage everyone to find a consignment in your area and work it. Its been a lot of fun and very rewarding.